Monday, April 28, 2008

A few days to go


Well we have started the debriefing process and the realization that I have to go back to the states is setting in. My time here has been amazing. I have learned so much, and the lord has pretty much rocked my world. I have realized how HUGE the lord is, and how SMALL I am. He has a plan for my life, and I patiently await what he has in store... it better be big because I don't think after this experience I can have a normal American life. I realize I will not be content unless my future job includes feeding and clothing those who need it... or at least being apart of the process.
I realize it has been hard being in Africa as a STUDENT... it was not the typical mission experience where you are "doing good" or have the "spiritual high". It was LIVING in Africa, and going to school. We were not changing things but mostly learning of things. It was hard to be in that position knowing there was so much to be done... but that was not what I went to do. Not that I sat around and did nothing... I am proud of the things I have done. Of helping the communities get sponsored...But I also learned that is was not me at all. I am literally one of the biggest sinners in the world... and it is only because of the Christ in me that any good could be done.... I also learned to wrestle with things.... to wrestle with poverty. I don't have a solution, but i am not ignoring it. How does one draw the line between causing dependency and giving to the poor? And how can we become OK with passing those in need on the street.
So many things i am going to have to continue to ponder and develop once i go home...
I am excited to come home and see JUST HOW MUCH the lord has rocked my life... I am also excited to see where the lord Leads me... HE is truly teaching me trust.... learning to Trust in him to lead me to what is next... because I am oblivious to the future.

This is a funny picture I saw on the road...IF ONLY AMERICANS HAD THIS WANT

Monday, April 21, 2008

Life Goes on....

It is hard to believe that time has flown so fast. In less then two weeks we embark on our quest home. The past month here in Kampala has been a lot of fun. Lots of work, and lots of play. I will miss my house mates here a lot when I return. So lets see... lets talk about the high lights of the past month.
One... There was a strike in the taxi park. The government decided that only new taxi's could run in the city. So all the old taxi's decided to strike, and they threw rocks and began a riot. There were fires, and people died. We were not allowed to go down town for a while...
Second... I learned that the only reason there is poverty is due to corruption in government. We have learned all the ways to eradicate it... and the only reason that it is not happening, is due to corruption.
Third... inspired by the office (the TV show)... we are having GO ED Olympics... the opening ceremonies started yesterday.... every one is way more into them they they should be!! haha.. there are consumes, events EVERY day.... etc... Bruce the man in charge of Go-Ed even wore a toga and had a torch run. We almost burnt ourselves. Then we went to eat at the Beijing restaurant down the street to kick start a fun week of events. I feel like I am at summer camp.
Fourth....Sam from Rwanda came to visit/work... so thats pretty exciting.
Well... time is rappin up... and its almost time to go home....

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Safari


Well... I had one of the most amazing weekends ever. We went to Queen Elizabeth's National Park on the way back to Uganda...We stayed in Hostels on the Game park (where Hippos would stalk our houses) We saw some of the most amazing animals in the world. I have never been so close to some of the most Majestic creatures ever. We went on 5 drives, and we saw Lions, Leopard, hogs, water buck, water buffalo, elephants, hippos, crocks, mongoose, and many more... it was one of the coolest things I have ever done, and also one of the most beautiful. It was humorous, because we went on these safaris on essentially a charter bus.... so on the way home today our bus over heated, probably because buses were not made to go offloading... but (TIA- this is Africa). So due to the over heating, it took us 12 hours to drive back to UGANDA.... so that was a little INTENSE To say the least. But we are now back in Uganda... back to the amazing cooks, and guards that i loved and missed. On the way here we stopped at the equator which was really cool. Did you know that on one hemisphere the water goes down one way, and on the other it goes the opposite... and ON the equator it goes STRAIT.... and this all can happen in a few feet... WEIRD huh....I am glad to be Back... but i do miss Rwanda...We did however go to the chao chao tonight, had the ice cream i craved, and visited the cat who lives in the grocery store... who is still alive and well, just a little smelly! It is nice to come back to somewhere I know... We also have a new addition to our "family"... there was a man from the embassy who went back home.. and left us his puppy!! so we have a new golden retriever named jack... we are very excited about him! he is Me and Leah's new running partner!!
Well... enjoy these pictures... they are from an amazing SAFARI!

Friday, March 28, 2008

Last night in Kigali...














Well... sadly... tonight is my last night in Kigali... I am going to miss it here... two months have FLOWN by... I have made so many friends... and met so many random people, had so many random experiences...I am actually really sad to leave... but I am sure I will enjoy my last month in Kampala... SERIOUSLY this semester is FLYING by and needs to slow down a little....
tonight... we are "kareoking" at the Mille Collines again... and this weekend.. SAFARI... we have a lot of fun things coming up.... but I am truly going to miss it here...
Good Bye Kigali... I hope we meet again

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

EASTER weekend!

Well i definatly had one of the funnest weekends i have ever had in my life.... lets start with friday night... me and Leah and Jordon went to the Mille Collines for dinner.... and then after we went to this bar next door where they have music every friday and saturday night... when the people went up we thought it was karaoke.... so we asked if we could sing... of cource, they let us... we sucked it up to the MAX... and after we were done we realized no one else sang... that it wasnt actually Karaoke... but it was a concert, that we butted in on and sang... HILARIOUS... it was really fun... but a little imbarrassing

Then Saturday morning we left for our trip, we went to Kubuye.. where we stayed in a hotel right on Lake Victoria... it was beautiful! one of the prettiest places ever! the Next morning (easter) we went to church where we sang (they really like the white people to prefrom here) And then after lunch we went on an adventure... we took a boat out on the lake and stopped at a few islands. The first one was Bat Island, and they dont call it that for no reason. There were thousands of Bats flying all around, it was INSAINE... i have never seen so many bats in my life. We hiked the mountian on that island and it was BEAUTIFUL.


After that we took the Boat and went to another Island called PEACE island... here they had a volley ball court, and a place to swim. So we drank coke, and swam, and played volley ball, and also PLAYED WITH THE MONKEY that lived on the Island... seriously one of the coolest places i have ever been to in my life. It was beautiful, and sereal almost that i am in AFRICA!
It was truly a relazing Easter, and it was super fun. Definatly something we needed after this intense class on Genocide!










Monday, March 17, 2008

The view from a court room and a mass grave

Kigali is transforming before my eyes... a beautiful country is turning out to have a lot of hidden hurt and secrets underneath its surface. The beggers without hands or feet, the people with huge scars on their backs or face are no longer unfortunate events, but they are the result of a Genocide....


Yesterday we visited the Guchacha courts. It was an odd experience to be a few feet away from someone convicted of murdering. The court was a lot different then the courts in America. We came in and sat on two benches. Every time the panel of judges came in, we would stand to show respect to them. We also stood for a minute to respect all the deaths from the Genocide. There was a panel of judges that all wore sashes with the Rwandan flag colors on them. The first man that was accused was accused by a lady of killing her husband. Everything was hear say, it was her word against his. The witnesses would say things like “I have seen him carrying a spear, so he must be guilty”, or “I heard from a lot of people that he killed that man”. The man would then respond with things like “I was in my house with my wife, and I heard the shots out side, but I did not kill him”. It was one persons word against another, and it seemed like nothing could be solved from the evidence given, because nothing held up, new evidence kept coming into the story, people would lie and then their lie would be discovered. It was hard to know what to think about this man. The second case was accusing a man of sending people to the road blocks. It was the same thing though, one persons word against another. It was a weird experience being there. I am reading a book from the perspective of the killers of the genocide, and it was weird to read these stories, and then be in the same room of people convicted of these crimes. The criminals wore pink of they were accused but did not admit to the crime, and orange if they did admit to the crimes. There was a man in orange in the room, and it was a very odd experience to be in the same room as these men. I did not know weather to be mad at them, feel sorry for them, or pray for them.

This experience was also very frustrating. I was frustrated by the way the hearing was going. I was mad that it was all people saying what they thought, or heard. It was one person’s word against another, and I didn’t think that there was enough evidence to be putting people in jail, or to be sentencing people for something that they really don’t have enough to judge on. I also we amazed by the fact that it is fourteen years after the Genocide, and these people are just now getting a trial. I know that there are so many people accused of crimes, and that if they all went as long as they went yesterday there is no way that it could have been done in less time, but I think of the one man who was tried. He had already spent 12 years in jail, and he was pleading innocent. All evidence was what people said, or thought, nothing concrete. What if this man was innocent and 14 years later he had his trial, and with no evidence they set him free. 12 years of his life were wasted in jail because of what people said. Also, how concrete can evidence be after 14 years? These courts are good, and it is a good way to try to obtain justice, and I know that one court can’t do all the trials, but it seems almost ineffective. How can you know what people did 14 years ago by people differing stories? Do these people really want justice? Or do they just want to feel like the crime paid on their loved ones has been rectified. It was very interesting though, and neat to see the way the courts work here.

So then today we went to the Nyamata Memorial site. It was a very hard thing to see. I am reading a book right now called “A Time for Machetes”, which is about the killers of this area. A man goes and interviews them about the genocide, and talk about killing in this church, so going to this church where I heave been reading about what these men did was a little difficult. We walked up to this church, and they are doing a lot of re building and beautifying (i.e. planting flowers, making a path, etc) this building, which was a little nuts. It has already been 14 years, and they are just starting now to beatify this building. We walked into this church, the door way was blown in, and the man told us that that was how they got into the church by blowing out the door. There were tons of holes in the ceiling as well from the effects of the bomb. There was over 10,000 people hiding in this church, a place where they thought they could find refuge. It was a church, it was supposed to be a safe place, but even the house of God meant nothing to the killers of the genocide. Out of the 10,000 people, two children survived. There was gun holes all over the church, doors looked like they had been ripped open very harshly. When we walked in, to the left was a broken door, and inside was all the cloths of the people that died. I felt a little ever whelmed looking at this room full of cloths; it was almost from the ceiling to the floor, piles and piles of cloths. We then walked down stairs where there was a case of bones and skulls, as well as a grave at the bottom. The man told us, the woman in the grave was a woman who fell in a well, and because she fell in the well, it is the only in tact body that was not completely mutilated by a machete. He then took us outside to the mass graves. We were allowed to go into these graves. The first one was just coffins with many bones in each. The second one was bones. There was hundreds and hundreds of skulls, thousands of bones. From the ceiling to the floor on every wall there were bones. You could see the way these people died, holes in the skulls, faces completely missing, huge crushed places where the machete had blown. You could smell the death in that room. You could see the thousands of people who had died. There were just so many skulls, with no race, gender, age, just a human skull with teeth, skulls that were once humans hiding in a church thinking that they might be saved. I have seen skulls before, in science, or in a book, but always for learning purposes, bones given after the death for the sake of learning and research. These skulls in this mass grave were not given after the fact for the sake of learning. They were lives forcibly taken for no good reason and rest in a mass grave because there were too many deaths, and people were in too many pieces to have their own graves. This memorial was a little hard for me. It was more then just reading, and hearing people’s stories. I was in the church these people died in; I was in the grave these people will spend the rest of their existence in. So many lives were taken during the genocide. I still cannot understand how people could hate one another so much.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Dealing with Genocide




“Human nature is for man to be a killer” is what our tour guide told us today. We went to the genocide memorial today. It was an intense experience. To have been here for a month already and still in some ways be so ignorant of the things that have happened here. The memorial was more of a walk though, with pictures, videos, testimonies. Upstairs there was a little section of all the genocides that have gone on around the world. There have been so many, in Europe, Africa, and China. It is hard to believe there can be so much hate towards people just because of a race. On the lower level we heard the history of why the genocide in Rwanda happened, as well as stories from people that went through it, saved people, and killed people. It was a lot of information, and a lot to process. The history of it all happened with the Belgians (surprise surprise it was an outsider trying to do something in a culture not their own). They brought their technology, and health products to Rwanda, divided them into three groups (Hutu, Tutsi, and twa… the twa were the pygmies) and they also decided that they would put the Tutsi’s in power because they were the minority, but they were the better race. This act that happened so many years ago started the resentment of the Tutsi people. This people that were once all united as Rwandans were now all divided. They brain washed these people with propaganda, they had articles on how the Tutsis were bad, and they were cockroaches, making them sick. They had the “10 Hutu Commandments” that talked about how if they married, or partnered, or did business with a Tutsi, that they were considered a Traitor. Eventually, after separations, beatings, small killings, when the president died, Genocide was born. They already had lists made up of the first people they were going to kill. They killed these people with clubs, machetes, and guns. It is not like the Tutsi’s looked any different, they knew the people. They taught children to kill their friends, neighbors were killing neighbors. One lady in the memorial said she once saw a baby, breast feeding from her dead mother. There was a whole section of children, what their favorite things were, how they were killed. The Hutus smashed babies against walls, machete them in their mother’s arms, shot them in the head. Children, how could any one do that to a child?!? We saw tons of skulls with holes through them, as well as machete lines. Broken bones, tattered cloths. There was one room with pictures from family members. So many faces, so many young people. The man told us there were 250,000 people buried in mass graves here. This happened just 14 short years ago, how could this happen? The government enforced a killing of an entire people group, and the people learned to be killers. This country stank of murder because the streets were littered with bodies. And no one did anything to stop it. The UN in fact pulled out. Thousands and thousands of people were getting brutally murdered as we in the states sat back and had a latte. It’s hard to be here and to be surrounded with people with this ghost of a past. The movie said every Rwandan was affected, by either knowing someone who died, or someone who murdered. They are sill going through trials because there are so many people. This country seems too developed now, so strong, yet you can tell there is quietness. I can’t imagine this place, and these people going to war on each other, hacking each other to death with farming tools. Neighbors killing neighbors, kids killing friends. People killing children and mothers over everyone else because they are the future of the Tutsi’s. How can people be so evil, so sick? How can a human be viewed as nothing the way the Tutsi’s were. And how after knowing, seeing a place like this, can we allow things like Darfur to still be happening? There will be more conflicts, and we just sit there and do nothing? We let thousands of people die brutal deaths, and sit back doing nothing? I can’t understand this mind set. I feel frustrated at my own people for doing nothing, I feel frustrated at the killers for being so evil, and I feel frustrated at myself for being ignorant for so long. I am still processing this, it is hard to process the deaths of thousands of people for absolutely nothing, as well as the fact that these things still occur and no one seems to help.



(The pictures are of the mass graves and names of people killed in the Genocide taken outside of the Memorial, cameras were not allowed inside)